Beach Day
I stand alone on this barren beach,
Let salty breeze embrace and twine
The sorrows sown of another’s deeds
Done in love, born of passions wrong
On my frail frame that sways unscathed
Of the blows that haven’t missed a mark.
There’s turmoil within, I feel it now,
The sea’s fury, balm for our youthful lark.
I remember an age when hope still lived,
I have a memory of happiness built
On sodden planes my heart freely bared
Before eyes that brimmed with promises
Never meant to last, never to fulfill.
Yet a fantasy I wove, a fool to live
In an instant that stretched the realm of time,
In dreams that sang of future’s bliss.
Today I tire easily, feel week to blink
To a world void of your eyes, a wind bereft of the scent
I cherished so long, I prayed would go on
Forever for my being to be normal.
Alas, you moved away, legions apart
Where my feeble thoughts alone are permit
To be with you once again,
To fabricate a life never to last.
I should have known it was all a ploy,
A plan you planned for a sweeter goodbye
You embraced death in the shadow of rage
I willingly showered without a care,
Thinking the worst, fierce for my heart
That had taken blows from all around.
I cry a sea of regret, I curse the blindness
That froze my heart to your certain farewell.
The sun has settled down, the waves rumbling
In sync to the lulling anguish I feel
Amidst bouts of anger, for never knowing
How you played my fears for wear,
How you ensnared my senses strong,
I failed to see you disappear, failed to grasp you
To keep with me, to fight till the end,
To defeat the scythe that claimed you.
Maybe it’s all for good, maybe I will be cured
Of this pain, this disease
The addiction I can’t do without.
I crush the soaking sand beneath
With toes that aspire to cage
The remnants of path we once trod.
But look, they drain away, flowing back
To abyss to which I lost you too.
